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I'm not exactly a person that can be categorized. I am different with each person I meet because EVERY relationship is different. With this knowledge I try to never make assumptions about how others are, I want to talk to everyone and learn who they are first. I'm nice sometimes but other times I'm introverted and self absorbed but PLEASE dont think less of me for it, I'm only trying to understand myself better. I'm fun in most situations, I love to bring other people up, I'll try my best to show you how special you are no matter what lies you have been told in the past and I'll always be there for you if you need to talk (I promise I'll just listen since I think giving advice is hard to do well and often just makes things more confusing.) In return, all I want from you is compassion and patience, LET me make my mistakes, LET me learn on my own and eventually I'll find my way through the swamp that is life. Honestly even if I complain I love the journey. I'm scared of losing people as friends, I'm scared of losing my family to early deaths so if I hold on too tight just comfort me and tell me that your not going anywhere. I cry very easily, whether its cause I'm happy, sad, angry, or bored (yes I can get bored to tears, thought it was just a turn of phrase didn't you?) Dont feel bad if you see me crying cause I find it benificial, I'm NEVER the kind of person who will hold in my feelings. I may be subtle about how I'm feeling but I'll try not to be too confusing. I have some VERY VERY wonderful friends who I love so much that my heart aches when I can't see them or talk to them. I LOVE all of you so much. I have family that although they are a little unorthidox they are still my family and I LOVE them. I hope that someday I can emulate a lot of the thing they've taught me and learn from they're mistakes as well. I'm engaged to a wonderful man who has been one of the most important people in my life for the past 11 years, (yeah this wasn't a short courtship) and I love him so much its rather distracting, I'm sure the infatuation will fade but I'm just as sure the love will grow deeper the longer we are together. There are a lot of people from my past that I hope I can get in touch with, I want to show everyone who I am NOW, and I want people to be able to show me who they are now. I'll never not talk to you, so dont be afraid to say hi. I'm a mediocre student, in that I can probably get a's and b's easily but I get bored with busy work. I love to sit in class and listening to lecture though (I know I'm a nerd) I also like playing games, like camp games running around capture the flag, life and death in the forest, drum circles, ultimate frisbee, volleyball etc, and I also like indoor games like magic the gathering, UNO, chess, whatever, I'd like if someone could teach me how to play poker well, especially texas hold 'em. I am a camp counselor for life (if you know what I mean ;) we're a crazy bunch!!!) I love large animals ie: elephants, dinosaurs, great pyrenese dogs, and horses. I love nature, I love it after it has rained, which is all the time in seattle or not enough in texas :( I try to exercise but I like group sports better: go Ultimate Frisbee!!! I love to write long letters and I love to paint, draw, write poetry, and sing and write songs. I'm artistic but not very good so I'll never get a fat head about it. I really want to learn how to do photography too, I love photos, I think its definitly one of the best inventions in the last couple of centuries. I also like camping, I love nature and being away from the symphony of the city. I don't own a TV because I know i'd spend less time nurturing myself if I had one. I stay up late, you can always call late or we'll share thoughts over a bottle of wine if you like. I really love early mornings, when theres dew on the grass and birds tentativly singing in the trees. I like walking around the city in the winter wearing my comfy sweatshirt, sitting somewhere and people watching. I am spiritual but not particularly religious, I definitly believe that there is a God, but I'm not set on what name is the right name for it. There is no question you could ask me that I'd be unwilling to answer honestly. So anyways, I guess thats me, if you want to get to know me more than write me or call me whichever. humbly yours, Love to all!!!!

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